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Clarendon

2010-02-12T10:30:00.001-08:00

Clarendon

2010-02-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

2010-01-08T23:33:00.000-08:00

jus boredom.

2010-01-04T10:54:00.000-08:00

fonts can be fun.try it and tell me ppl.
im bored.so ya a little something2 i do in skul.
play with fonts n shapes.

2009-12-30T11:50:00.000-08:00

I AM SORRY

cos as a human being i am not perfect too.
but at least i can compromise.
i can reason with you.
i can even talk nicely.
jus think about it aite.
and im sorry i do not like certain things u're doing.
n im sorry some of my action isnt appropriate.
now that i noe my mistakes.
i will not repeat and yea start realising yours with what i don like.
cos im someone whom who can compromise things.
unlike the others.

amek kao hazel!!!!

2009-12-19T10:29:00.000-08:00

PANDAI2 CARIK K.

2009-12-13T08:59:00.000-08:00

its a test of your will its a test of your strength.
i noe you can do it.
i noe you can.
i noe youre independent.
i noe someone out there is good and will treat you better.
i jus noe.

wats left.

2009-12-10T08:35:00.000-08:00

maybe its just better for you this way.
maybe you will find happiness.
maybe now you noe wat i have always said to you.
maybe this journey is just painful for you.
maybe your light is somewhere else.

one more, silence.

2009-12-02T08:18:00.000-08:00

it takes time to heal the pain.

just maybe.

2009-11-25T10:38:00.000-08:00

i still remember.

2009-11-18T07:13:00.000-08:00

I, I still remember
How you looked
That afternoon
There was only you
You said it was just like a full moon
Blood beats faster in our veins
We left our trousers by the canal
And our fingers they almost touched
You should have asked me for it
I would have been brave
You should have asked me for it
How could I say no?
And our love could have soared
Over playgrounds and rooftops
Now every park bench screams your name
I kept your tie
I'd have gone wherever you wanted
And on that teacher's training day
We wrote our names on every train
Laughed at the people off to work
So monochrome and so lukewarm
And I could feel our days where becoming night
I could feel your heart beating across the grass
We should have run, I would go with you anywhere
I should have kissed you by the water
I still remember

happy 4th month.
here ur own artist doing u an artwork.a simple typography for u.

2009-11-17T08:23:00.000-08:00

HERE IS MY DAMN ISP PROJECT!!!!!

a-po-lo-gy

2009-11-17T08:13:00.000-08:00

a thousand kisses to you.
a thousand sorry i gv you.
it wasn't my intention to shout at you.
it wasn't my intention to get angry.
i think i just cant take watever tat is.
now, ure asleep im here thinking what im doing.
get your friends back.
i noe you must have friends.
go go go!
i think i was too much.
im sorry.
i was wrong too.
i think you've been doing your part.
i am as of now doing mine.
somehow i noe ure lonely.
seeing my face each day.
u need frens n ya i have to understand that.
n im working, it will kill time.
go and mingle.
jus remember i am still here.

ISP

2009-11-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

ISP
ISP
ISP
ISP
aahaha.
donoe wats tat right?
This thing has been killing me for the past 3weeks. and i jus change my fucking idea and design. and im only left with fucking one week b4 submission.wth
im RUNNING OUT of ideas.
i need to skate.
tat the bloody thinking cap.

ON monday ili b'day was a blast.
im noe we are sweet bby.
but u busted me for ISKANDAR.
ahahhaa
anyway hippie big breast day sweetheart.
May u grow bigger.get wat i mean.ahahah.
i love my old used to be pasrt time gf.

and and and
i love the munchie donuts much alot.
im waiting for you here at home.i've slept, wake up and did my work and where u?
in the bus!!!!lovelovelovelove you munchie donuts.

pleasure or what?

2009-10-06T10:18:00.000-07:00

i have this weird feeling.
i give pleasure and by giving pleasure, it pleasure me getit?
ahahaha
nobody does.
in human nature, human have sex so did i.
in many ways. i love reading and watching kamasutra.
so you see bby where i get those sitting lying down and also the most outrages 7 fingers which doesnt hurt.
in kamasutra seduction is damn impt,u don not wet the girl then fucking is hard.
or ure giving the girl a damn bad sex- mare.ahahahaha
second is noe the right spot.ahahaha
the GSPOT. ITS IMPT.play the gspot gently.i noe u love it bby.
THIRD i just found out, having sex sitting down gives more pleasure.
like OMFG pleasure.ahahaha
ok.
i had a great 45mins fucking.in many style.lets do it again bby.ahahah
my HObby is to fuck.
so wat?
only wen the gf needs it.ahahhaah
nites fellow non-fucking ppl.

maybe what people dont get tires me out.

2009-09-30T10:42:00.000-07:00

im doing all this, its because we can go somewhere.
i did not even complain.
why would you even think that im feeling that way.
you can just though of giving up on us, but in many worst situation i nver thought of that.
Cos in all relationship i have never gave up.they gave up on all the us-ed.
it applies to us.
i may just run away from all the problems in the past.
not anymore, cos with every problem i'm having with you,
I want it to be settled so we can have a better r/s.
so we can always be happy.
cos from the moment i am with you or b4 i have loved you.
and am still loving you.even more.
and im missing us being happy and im missing you.damn alot.

and ya to ppl out there, i think i've been keeping this too long and giving faces to you ppl too much. god damn it. she's damn attached to me and i love her and i bet she loves me too.so ya, stop trying.

I am venting everything.things not important also i wana state down cos im tired of keeping.and dear bloody blog ure listening quietly.tanx yaw.

okk, assesment argh wat the fuck right?sleepless night, stressing out.freaking out.
and mum ask me to quit if you cant afford.don let me have false hope, going to skul with no laptop to do work.jus so you noe mum , everything im using is damn impt. i bet you don understand right.u make me who i am.wen im married to my gf, i wont be like you.ok im damn angry.fucking damn angry

..............

2009-09-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

when nothing seem right.
when everyting seem to be a problem.
when i know im giving up.
i donoe where to lead myself.
im stuck in the middle of the journey.
Thots rushed, choices made seems wrong.
when many times i want to make it right and it tumbles down.
whtas more to life, nothing.

second!!!!!!!!! and more.

2009-09-19T12:50:00.000-07:00

hippie 2 months bby!!!!!
love you munchie donuts.
and and
despite all differences,
despite all doubts we had,
we're still holding on,
you and me,
the best things is' we've yet to have major conflicts.
you noe i love you,
though ppl from my past still lingers ard,
and i wont let you go and go back to that past of mind.
NO WAY BBY!!!
she's a fren, jus a fren
a fren i noe for over 8 years.
I have you, and that is the only thing that matters.
you and me
our world with frens with us,
and for now im damn missing you.
i wana kiss hug u plssssss sweetheart.
ahahaha.okkk.enuf of those mushy sweet ass out of me.
anyways, again, happy 2 months n i wana count more pretty pls.
love you. miss you, cuteass

reply.

2009-08-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

as much as you love me
im loving you the same way.
doubts, it will always come and go.
but as long as this love for me and you stays.
we will stay strong jus like a mosque standing still in tsunami.
i noe can gv u everything now.
i noe we're having difficulty surviving one littlest things we have
with this littlest thing i can give you i hope youre still happy.
i wan u to have a perfect life
i wan you to be happy
i wan u to feel love each day
as of now, we're happy.
in the future i wan to make u heels over toes over skies flying high.
and of now i wana hold you so tight
look you in the eye
and tell you "you mean the world to me"
i wana whisper to your ears "i miss you so much bby"
i wana write a note saying i love you shortie like the pic.

lost.

2009-08-26T10:12:00.000-07:00

when patience has its limit, disaster strike.
i think wen my blood boiled hard, i get lost.
lost to the extend that when i'm walking i feel im walking on the street alone.
Alone, only me and the straight road ahead.
not knowing what to do, future which is uncertain.
Overwhelm with overloading schoolwork, and then it hit me hard.
The past just flash back.
and yet again i was lost.
walking with no direction, cars horn at the ears, yet ure not awake.
maybe its just a test.
A test of my patience.
A test of my will.
How beautiful love can get,i am so scared to see the past re-appearing.
and yes, you've said you're not like the past.
I know you're not.
Its just a phobia.
A phobia of a thousand knife piercing through the heart.
and even so, thinking bout it, I still love you and phobias can be overcome.
n right now at this very moment from the morning i wake up, till now im typing this bloody post, im missing you damn much.
and i love you with infinity L.O.V.E WORDS WRITTEN all around me and also this small heart of mine.
and now happiness is what i miss most.
and now being 17 is what i miss most.
sitting at the park, smoking and singing to stand by me
made me really happy back then.
y do i have to grow up?
happiness of the youth is what i miss most.
something i cant get back.
to a sister, a fren an asshole in my life, we will go through this shit together like always.

over many days.

2009-08-23T11:36:00.000-07:00

first

bby HIPPIES ONE MONTH AND I LOVE YOU LIKE MUNCHIE DONUTS LA.AHAHAHA

SECOND

SCHOOL WORK is overloading and im dying.

third

i miss bby!!!!!!

fourth

i miss wawabelo.like really miss her.

fifth

i miss chiillout with fin the legong.

ok go!!!!i wana sleep byebye monkeys in the world

here it goes.

2009-08-08T11:17:00.000-07:00

~~~~~ it says it all~~~~~

2009-08-04T13:30:00.000-07:00

whatever gona happen.
conflicts, misunderstanding and stuff.
i still love you.
i still miss you like before.
or maybe more.
a thousand apologies to you, over how i react.
there is just too much to take.
i thot cutting hair can buang sway, mcm pile up got la.
i think i wana keep long hair.ahahaha.
maybe dreadlock.
shall think bout it.

and bby i MISS YOU U ALOT AH TODAY.

AND I LOVE YOU MORE DEN YOU LOVE ME.

why u?

2009-08-01T10:36:00.000-07:00

i wouldnt say ure different, i wont say ure hot, i wont say ure cute, i wont say ure cool. Cos that is too watever ppl say.
which it has no doubt that watever ppl describe you is true.

you make me realise again how beautiful its is to love someone.
you make me fall for you more each day.
you make me miss your smile.
you make me miss you.
you make me look forward for a better day ahead.
you make me smile
you make me love you.
you make me, being me
you love me , for me.

what else can i ask for?
ntg more.except that you will love me as much as i love you.
and right now, this very moment im already missing you.
im thinking of you.
i don wish to stop loving you.
i don wish to stop missing you.
i don wish to stop thinking of you.

dearest sweet little bby read this n i wish u get your answers.

days back tracking

2009-07-29T11:41:00.001-07:00

ok. bby ask me to update.
life with loved ones for the past few days n week.
hmmm.yup.

i guess i see happiness in you.
i see love shining again.
i see myself smiling like joker each day.
i see you in my heart.
i see myself falling for you more each day.
i see.................
ok bby.......I LOVE YOU MORE DEN YOU LOVE ME.......
AHAHAHAHAHA.
BABY IS DEAR, DEAR IS BABY, BABY IS SWEET, SWEET IS BABY
SO Whats bby?
babby is everything nice and spicy in my life with a little touch, no actually alot of sweets.ahaha.

and i love you.

2009-07-19T13:02:00.000-07:00

loving you can be the happiest for me.
loving you makes me see rainbows.
loving you just means everything right now.
loving you means im serious about you.
ASKIng for your hand, and you reaching out
just means the world to me.
can i have you, spending the your life with me?
give me a space in your heart, cos your name is written in mine.
will you?
i'll love you like i love art.
will you dear?

happiness.wat is tat,

2009-07-18T11:09:00.000-07:00

somtimes,
in times like this
i forget how happiness feels like.
in times like this,
im numb.
in times like this,
i forget how to smile.
in times like this, how i wish all can end.

tired

2009-07-18T11:04:00.000-07:00

to love or to let go.
it all looks the same.
someone needs to decide.
im tired of thinking.

love.falling

2009-07-13T13:31:00.000-07:00

the thoughts of falling out of love stopped.
u came, n i thought
why cant i gv myself a chance.
maybe i should
not maybe but i should.
falling in love is a great thing dear.

dan sayang tetap sayang

2009-06-30T12:02:00.000-07:00

hoping for the love tat never fade.
for u and only u.
im here as a fren, as a lover, as an asshole in ur life.
come back bbyy, pls do.
sayang tetap sayang
dan gwa rindu lor!!!!

when.

2009-06-23T21:39:00.001-07:00

when loving was beautiful
when loving was happiness
when loving you seems so easy.

when love turn to hatred
when u left me.
when im stranded.

when moving on was difficult.
when searching for answer was tough.
when life was painful.

when promises still stays.
when loving you stays in my heart.
when i tried but it seen impposible in your eyes

~~~~~~shi~~~~~~

you.

2009-06-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

wen i love u means i love u.
loving was never easy.but it makes me happy.
ure my life.
n will oways be.
I LOVE YOU TILL THE END.
I KNOW IT.
BABY DON LEAVE ME STRANDED LIKE B4.COS I KNOW U LOVE ME TOO.

SILENCE.

2009-06-14T10:32:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU BUT I WONT UTTER A WORD.
MAKE SENSE?
IT DOES TO ME.
YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.
YUP, I LOVE YOU.IF YOU DON'T REALISE.
BUT WTH, U DON'T BOTHER.

AND YAKOLT IS JUST LIVING LIFE DAY BY DAY AS IT IS.

i will.

2009-05-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

i rise and fly.
i see freedom in just 10miles.
is it worth wat im losing?
i bet it does.
I've yet to see what the world is all about.
PAIN suffering losing. it all seem familiar.
lets just try to see
what its like being happy enjoying with oneself.

HAPPY SONG HERE I COME.
youNG FOLKS!!!
LETS JUMP AND WALK WITH IT.

dreams

2009-05-24T21:57:00.000-07:00

i do not belief in just dreaming.
dreams must become a reality.
When u dream of us,
I am willing to achieve that.
hOW far can we go,
u and me.
I wan it to travel far,
i wan us to last.
It came to an end months back.
People change, so did u and me.

On a different note,
counting hours to just like smoke in thin air.
its the best, everything will change.
for better or worst, its the best option.

life.

2009-05-24T01:46:00.000-07:00

I think love isn't judge by how much time u spend with a person.
Its what your heart walks around with that person.
ahaha.
To you, the person u love cannot be with you.
Like i told you my dear,
You do not to be with a person with statue to love a person.
You can always love her from far.
I cant be the one choosing for you who should you be with.
At the end of each day u decide who you wana be with , following your heart.
And like i always say.I support you.
And remember this, i don't wish to see you hurt.
Sometimes TO LOVE IS TO LET GO.
Thats the best.
All the best darling.

somehow.

2009-05-07T20:24:00.001-07:00

Lingers.those time i miss.
those time we talk
those time we sang
those time we had no money.
those time we partied hard.
Lingers.those time i miss.
Im here whenever u need me.
4am, 6am or even 10.30am.
I'm always there to comfort.
I'm always there to listen.
I'm always there to give you a hand if you need.
Lingers. those time i miss.

SHI

2009-05-03T11:59:00.000-07:00

i DIDN'T expect to get a message from u.
when i did i was glad it was you.
cause you make me feel i'm all not forgotten.
I have ego. I keep not wanting to know what is going on.
maybe I appear in someone's life just to help them through.
when it comes to a point i have to leave.
I will leave w/o a word.
I will leave with good memories installed to your head.
One thing for sure, I'm glad i did know you, tried loving you
lETS see what is next up for us or me or whoever.

~~~~ to you whom it may concern ~~~~
My PAST.

if.

2009-05-01T22:40:00.000-07:00

if i can just forget. i would.
if i can stop thinking. i would.
if i have to leave you to make you happy. i would.
if life is so simple. i wont be here struggling.
At many times i will break down. I will cry my lungs out.
I did not expect it to be infront of u.
There are so many if-s that i would do.
I miss bein 16 with ntg to worry.
i miss being 18 where i would club from we to sat.
I miss being having alot of money.
I miss throwing money to people so everyone is happy.
Mum is being a pain in the ass.
For the very 1st time i open up to aunt.
Not knowing the outcome.
She was shock what i went through, all my 20yrs.
I dont feel loved in the family.
Thats why i'd rather listen to aunt than you.
You and dad have issues and better settle it fast b4 me and the bro leave the house .
Thats when everything will open up and you'll be in trouble.
I have survived you not giving wat i needed.
I guess loving someone isn't that easy.

not knowing.or not telling.its a risk.

2009-04-28T09:49:00.001-07:00

i suck at telling how i feel or watsoever.
but if telling you how i feel means losing you.
Its the biggest regret ever.
but by not telling I think i am being dumb.
Its obvious i like you.
Its obvious i adore you.
Its obvious i do wana be with you.
whats not obvious.
tell me bout it.
maybe my monotenoues look everyttime you're ard me.
is that how u spell monotenoues.watever.
if i were to fall for you. is it wrong?
Its not easy to love or like someone.
but when something like this happen i tend to keep quiet.
and i've had enough of keeping quiet.
i cant stand it any longer cos my heads' gona blow anytime.
sometimes i do think wat will i be doing if u never did enter this freaking life of mine.
wat i will be doing now later or 2mrw.
now im thinking what if you were to disappear after reading this.
fear of losing.i admit.
though i always deny it.
i DO FEAR OF LOSING YOU SOMEHOW
i donoe wat i putting across here cos im rambling over.
and my hands are shaking typing this.
will u get wat i mean?i hope so.

merecun.

2009-04-26T08:41:00.000-07:00

dum dum dum
bunyi merecun.
bom bom bom.
merecun meletup.

I send this msg to fin's late father wen we had our swissotel party.
Met fin jus now and we talked like always.
suddenly reminded wat stupidities i did to her father.

There was this time, fin didn't go home cos she gt drunk.
her dad called me in the middle of my morning class and my classmate laugh at me cos her dad find me cos she din go home.
Uncle sorry ah i always disturb you with manisa.
Dear bestfren, do wats best i will support you. jus don get urself hurt again.
Tell him brani tunjok muke. ahahahhaha.

think and brood over it yaw!!!!
im waiting.in silence.

for the best.

2009-04-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

missing that someone who always know when im in need of a hug.
who knows how to comfort me wen im stress.
letting go was not easy.
now that i have.
i wont turn back.
im tired of being a toy in ur life.
yes, i look like i don't seem bothered with wat you did.
but u break my heart into pieces.
something that i cant show. how painful it was.
i know i can get you, jus a phone call away.
but, i woudldnt wana do tat.
its too painful.
i'd rather just be me with my life w/o you.
i think tats much better.
im not sure if u did try getting through my cells lately.
if ure reading this, don try.cos im not using it anymore.
its rather difficult for me to express myself.
if im heartbroken or sad. people wont see it.
everybody noes how cold blooded i may look.feeling-less.
someone has been my comfortzone lately.
and i'm thankful for that. :)

you.life and more.

2009-04-16T10:54:00.000-07:00

The road to our life is straight.
The fate is wat we make.
Relying on god is stupid.
To where it lead us, is all up to individual.

Time tells, how much I take in
Trying to breathe trying to love
Love lead me to the grave.
Breathing helps me survive.

Whom I chose
where they came
it doesn’t matter.
Cause as of now im happy with u.

U might not care
U might not notice.
I like u like I love art.

drop.

2009-04-15T11:15:00.000-07:00

U SANK MY HEART DEEP INTO THE OCEAN BBYY.
u make me have sleepless night.
u make me trip on ur face.
illusion can never end.
HALLUCINATION keeps coming back.
brain juices are out
day night
morning afternoon
dinner or supper
breakfast or lunch.
i will think of u.
ure heart is with someone.
mine is sticking to u.
beauty is in ur eyes.
those smile makes my day.
ur company never bore me.
a mth past.im starting to like u.
im starting to enjoy ur aura ard me.
IM writing this cause u will never read bout it.
this blog is dead with my deep thoughts not meant for ppl to read.

2009-04-10T11:02:00.000-07:00

Public holiday- good friday
People go to town.
clubs.
pubs.
chill and stuff.
i went ehub with beloness had chocolate fondue.
eat KFC like junkies.
sit by the waterbreaker.
get mosquito bites.
Send beloness home.
Stand at her house window and literally chat while asking her to try dresses for an hour.
Here I a at home blogging while she is fast asleep.
I had a berry ggggggooooooooooddddddd FRIDAY!
i LOVE!!!! *KENING NAIK TINGGI2*

what telah happening?

2009-03-29T22:58:00.000-07:00

last week tues met wawa.
wed met wawa
thurs met wawa
fri met wawa
sat met wawa
sun emo-ing day
mon met wawa
its wawa for the week.ahaha
anyways i gt a fucked up week.
tuesday something happen.
wednesday otw to arena i lost my wallet.nvm.
i wanted to enter arena , i cant cos im gay.ok.
nvm, thurs n friday was fine.
saturday i lost y bloody viewty in a cab!!!!
frustrating.
n life suck!!!!bad week!!!
ili don be sad, talk to someone please.
ur part time bf here still loves you kk.ok go!
wawabelo!!!u make me revolves around u and me. lovelove bby.

to you, whom i once loved.

2009-03-13T11:26:00.000-07:00

THIS WASN'T LOVE.

why i did that.?
simple reason, u push me away when i was in need.
u left me for no reason.
i fall for you n your stupid crap while you are having fun behind me.
you said u never leave? LIE
YOU said u will be there for me? LIE
you said u will always love me?LIE
Just to how many times have u lied.
Just to how many people i lost for loving u.
How many bloody dirty months i took to pick up the broken pieces.
dO yOU bloody know how it felt to love someone, who treated u like a fling.
fuck you with your once a upon a time that u love me.
I can never treat someone i loved once just as friends.accept that.
u can never my friend.U were once my girlfriend.
Why would i bother how you felt when u don't even noe how i was feeling.
Its bloody hard for me to get over you.
I have to pick every small pieces up back to where i was without u.
How many people i must apologise.
So y should i even care if u're hurt cause right now u lose someone.
ok...u again him back again.
When u lose him. that was how i felt when i lost u.worst.
Did u fucking forget that u were with me when i lost my grandma.
Do u noe how it felt to lose someone.
I doubt so.
You can nevr change.
Still slashing ur wrist.
So that wat he will pity u.
I've had my fair share of YOU!

busy with a big B

2009-03-06T12:20:00.000-08:00

Where do i start.
The week was a sucky one. Up till now i only have like 20hours of sleep for the whole week. Rushing with assignment due almost everyday. But i did manage to party with the lovely ladies on thursday despite my busy schedule. Saw many familiar faces in there but did not acknowledge a few cos paisey gi dbl o kan.

I reach home i on laptop do visual culture and ili was talking to me nicely which i find it abit weird. Part time gf ako yang tak betol ni. Friday skali lagik jumpe the ladies. MY life is them. Wana be my gf accept my friends first. And next week i was suppose to have a week of holiday but i got make lessons, so senang ckp takde holiday. mcm bodo.

ONe thing.

2009-02-17T19:28:00.000-08:00

Afterall we've been through.
All the shit i went through to be with you.
Months have past.
A different year again.
All i ask is for u stick around me as friends.
Cos right now when i've realise that someone can take care of you.
Someone can be there for you.
All i need is for us to stay as friends.
A friendship is worth much more than anything now between you and me.
Knowing that someone can take care of you.
I can stop worrying alot.
I know i still love you.
But i guess i cant take care of you.
i guess i have many other commitment.
But i did try.
ANd I do love you till now.
And i cant lose you now as a friend.
Special friend.

2009-02-14T23:06:00.000-08:00

-yakult
feb'09

v.day

2009-02-11T10:23:00.000-08:00

As usual, people go out amd celebrate valentine's i will be at work slogging my guts out.
anyway who i wana celebrate with.?
donoe.no answer and i don care.

i would rather work and not think what you will be doing on ur valentine's day.
no surprises for any girls.
So ladies wana find me, i'll be at hilton sidewalk looking good. working.
i wana surprise you but looking at certain issue.
no use.cos u might just don care.
i'll rather not care too.
toddles ppl!!!nites.

Belo days .

2009-02-07T23:01:00.000-08:00

I have a damn funny afternoon in skul.
its starts off this way:
i ASked ili where is our class and she said its at the fifth floor.
i tell her but last week i went its at the 3rd floor.
she jus msged me back 5th floor.
sebagai org yang belo i follow her.
i went to the 5th floor class.
den i thot to myself "ehk asal ckigu lain ehk?"
being very bochap, i ignore since ili oso never say anything.
den i saw rina. i thot to myself i thot rina is in my video production not animation.
ili started laughing" yakult kite salah class bodo!!"
den i say "ili kao sial la buat ako malu la, mcm ne?
oh ya, we end up sitting in tht class till it ends.

Works suck on friday cos i was damn tired.
i rush to work after skul.tiring sia.
Sat was ok. Work again at hilton.
oh ya i almost forget.
i had a great time spent with you although it is short.
I shall meet you soon an kite tukar2 kasot k..hehehee.

where do i go from here.

2009-02-03T01:44:00.000-08:00

sat, i did the postcard.
damn tedious but im enjoying photoshop.
my new hobby is play with photoshop for hours.
okk, met up with bebe at airport and had a photoshoot.
then then then, we went homeclub!!!!
Met up with fazlee, fish , ery and all.
So long never see them..

Sunday morning work.
ahahaha.
i play hard i study hard n i work hard.
How crazy can i get.
So Here i am thinking how can i put relationship in my life.?
Everything seems more important.
school, work, friends are all important.

I am ready to commit but the other party must be willing to understand.
ahahahahaha.
which i doubt so.
friends are my family.
There are reasons why they are my family.
AND AND AND Girls ard me are ALL MY BLOODY FRIENDS~!!!!!!
Don't get pictures and kissing scene all wrong.
Damn YOU narrow minded girls.
ahahahaa.

damn i need to go to work.
bye.

days of my life.

2009-01-31T00:14:00.000-08:00

Let's just rewind to thursday:

actually i cant exactly recall wat's happening on that day.
except for the fact that i went clubbing again.
what's new right.
we went in at ard 1.15am. It was damn pack ah.
People get pay what!!!!
Konpus Clan noes thats happening so we took some stuff b4 going in.
Barang bAik dok!!!ahahahahhaa...
INside we drank jugs of drinks.
oh ya guess what.we manage to dance for a few minutes only.
club close at 2.30 ah. Bingit kape.

Friday:
School was draggy.
i gt my first gamelan lesson n i was damn rusty.go ask ili!!!
I went to accompany ili and poot cut their hair.
Btw, ILI lawa sey rambot baru. ili mane?ili mods!!!ahahaha
inside jokes.
POOT blakang botak la..ahahaha..takla...nice too!!!

Now ON a saturday!!!
Shitty saturdays like this i sit here on my laptop doing my schoolwork.
Postcard due monday la.!!!!!!Puki tol..
So lazy wana do!!!
kkk...get back to work!!!
u cant be lazy yakult.

anyway i miss someone badly.ok go!!!

wens the day-ing.

2009-01-28T09:09:00.000-08:00

Wednesday is a waste of time for me to go to school.
I got one hour of lesson.wth. itravel all the way to bugis for that.
pfft!!!

btw, met fin at ard 8pm at her house.
Messy ah!!!like gt war..ahahahhaa.
ohhh..yes...irritating john came.
As usual i was the one layan-ing his crap.
Sat at playground at 10plus, kataky came to meet us awhile.
Chat here and there.Now im back.

WOOHHOOO!!!!!!
2mrw thursday.
Thursday is happenning nite!!!!
I always have something on thursday nite till morning.
I actuallly cant wait to meet someone.
Someday we shall meet kkkk.

to you,
you can trust pictures or me.
pictures means a thousand word.
but words from my mouth means only one thing.
and that i have always love you.
never did i cheat on you.
if u can just trust me back.
im nt asking for more.

When i can still.

2009-01-26T11:08:00.000-08:00

When i can still love you.
I will never stop loving you.
No matter what's the situation.
But till when should i wait.
You leave me msges which is irrelevant.
But still where do i keep you.
IN MY HEART.

Someday if i have to stop loving you, don't blame me.
Coz i've tried my best.
I've tried all my heart and soul.
i've tried being there for you.
i've tried.
i'm still trying.

Who is having someone else in their heart.
Not me, its you.
who is having fun.
Not me, its you.
Who actually made most of the mitakes.
not me, its you.

I love you, bbyygrrl.

confused.

2009-01-25T00:07:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, it feels like you still love me.
judging from your what you wrote, you are lovinlg someone else.
Why did you come back into my life.
I was alright for a moment thinking it was all over.
I thought i would have a chance when u came back.
But it was that wasn't true.
You only treat me as a fren i guess now.
But im not strong enough to just treat u just like a fren.